Recently I've been ill. I've had nausea, light headedness, been quite anti-food, set off easily by smells and stomach pains.
All these are symptoms experienced in pregnancy, in particular, morning sickness.
A few people have said 'You could be pregnant, you know' Thanks for scaring me guys.
Most people know I don't really like children. I'm one of the few females who find babies ugly and repulsive.
I've always said 'If I get pregnant I'm aborting that mofo straight up'
Last night I had a dream. In my dream all my illness turned out to be a pregnancy. I thought long and hard in my dream and decided to go through with the pregnancy and promised my child to my friend, Hannah, who absolutely loves babies. I got a shock at their birth, I ended up having twins, a boy and a girl. Immediately I fell in love with them. My babies were beautiful. Even though frowned upon for being a 16 year old mother, I showed everyone my twins proudly. I told Hannah I wanted to keep them and she didn't like that. She tried to steal them but I was so attached to them. They were my darlings. I wasn't giving them up. I ended up hiding out in the hills with just me, my baby daddy and my twins.
This dream honestly has changed me. Doesn't sound like much, but it's changed my view point. I feel now, if I did get pregnant, that I'd have trouble even considering abortion. It kind of made me want to get pregnant and have my own twins for real. I still hate children, but my children will be beautiful and decent, unlike everyone elses. It really has effected my view on having children. I'll have one, Vixi-Cobalt Canberra or Cobalt Dallas Cobalt is a pretty name.
On another note, I almost got murdered today.
Hannah (The baby snatcher) and I were waiting to get on a bus. This crazy guy got off and just pushed through everyone. Like, completely recklessly. Everyone watching him walk away with an expression that said 'That guys a douche'. I said out loud to all these people I don't know 'Clearly, he's a dick' but it wasn't loud enough for him to hear.
Hannah commented on his lack of a belt 'I can see his underwear'
He turned around, it was pretty much impossible he heard Hannah's comment but he turned around. He started walking towards all of us waiting to get on the bus. I saw this crazed glare in his eyes. I desperately tried to board the bus A.S.A.P but he made it to us before I could. He clenched his hand into a fist and swung his arm at me and Hannah. We both ducked and missed it. Everyone looked at us. He tried to kill us! I could have died. I got on the bus before he could make it back for another go. It actually terrified me.
I'm never making fun of anyone ever again!
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